Today’s post is going to be less about this outfit (although, I do love this one). The entire outfit is under $60, which kind of speaks for itself.
I’ve been doing a lot of thinking about my blog and (ironically) how I can make it better. I realized I should be connecting with you guys on a more personal level, so we’re kicking it off today by talking about one of my biggest struggles: perfectionism.
I can remember being a perfectionist (and a very extreme one) as early at 3rd grade. That’s when I really got into art, and I remember constantly ripping pages out of my sketchbook. Even if I was drawing in pencil and had the ability to erase, I had to start completely over if I didn’t like something. Even the smallest eraser mark would drive me crazy.
I’ve stayed that way ever since, but it’s manifested itself in every aspect of my life – how I look, how skinny I am, how smart I am, how successful I am, how many followers I have, and even who I’m dating. As I’m writing this blog post, I’m constantly backspacing. Typing. Backspacing. Typing. Backspacing, again.
It really hit me last week because I had a legitimate quarter-life crisis (seriously, I’m not even trying to be funny). Turning 25 totally threw me. By 25, I thought my blog would be well on its way to becoming my full-time career. I figured I would at least be a manager at my corporate job. I figured I would be close to being engaged (serious LOL to that one). I figured I would have enough money to buy myself a Chanel Boy bag – no joke, this is actually a life goal of mine.
Post-QLC (Quarter-Life Crisis), I’ve been doing a lot of thinking. Perfectionism doesn’t need to be a bad thing. Perfectionism is inherently linked to passion – they’re so closely related they’re almost the same thing. It goes awry when it takes the joy out of doings the things you love (for me, blogging) and replaces it with stress, worry, and frustration. I’ve become such a perfectionist that I would rather go a week without posting an Instagram photo then posting one that I don’t perceive as perfect – and that’s a problem.
So with that said, I’m going to make it a goal to post on this blog twice a week and my Instagram five days a week – NO PRESSURE THOUGH. Seriously, if this QLC taught me anything, it’s that I need to chill out.
Anyone else deal with this? I know it has to be common in the blogging world, so comment below if you know what I’m talking about.
Okay, end rant. I hope I don’t seem crazy (I promise I’m not).